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.He rises off the sofa and goes to her, taking her in his arms, hugging her, and to everyone and no one he asks.“What would make him think he could hurt you and live?” And again, it is the Death voice.Lindsay looks up into his face and discovers flat, blank eyes of death.“Jason don’t go after Derek, let the police handle it.You’ll ruin your life if you kill him, you’ll ruin our lives.”“But, he hurt you, he raped you.How can I let him live?” Asks Death.“Because you have to, killing him would kill us, it would separate us and that would hurt me far more than the rape.I can’t lose you, I can’t.Don’t kill him, stay here and love me, please Boomer.”Jason’s eyes flicker as tears well up and run down his face.Lindsay smiles at the tears, because she knows Death would not cry, only Jason.She looks through the tears and sees her Boomer looking back.And now it is Jason who speaks to her, and it’s Jason’s voice again.“I love you so much Lindsay.” Then to Paul, “What can we do, call the police?”Paul settles into a chair and gives Jason a sad look.“Actually, and you don’t know how much it hurts me to say this, but I don’t think they would even arrest him under the circumstances.”“What circumstances? The son of a bitch raped Lindsay, those are the circumstances!”“Listen to me calmly, please, and understand, this is not my thinking, but it’s how the police will see things.Derek and Lindsay used to be together, a prior relationship.They’ll say she opened the door and let him in.Lindsay was drunk and Derek was high.Was it a party maybe? One that got a little too friendly? Do you see how it will look? And with his mother’s money and status the police won’t be too eager to get involved.I’m sorry Lindsay.”“Fuck!” Jason says.“And you want to be a cop someday, why?”“Jason, Little Brother, you can only change things from the inside.”“So what the hell do we do then? What the hell can we do?”“You’re doing it already.Jason forget Derek and take care of Lindsay, she needs you.”“Listen to Paul.” Lindsay says.“I’ll be all right if I know we’re okay, baby are we okay?”“What do you mean?”“I didn’t trust you.I believed you were cheating on me.”Jason goes over to the coffee table and stares down at the pictures.“It hurts that you didn’t trust me, but I can see why?”“I thought you were cheating and I’m the one who wound up in bed with Derek.”“You were in bed with Derek because he forced you there.” Jason says, and for an instant Lindsay hears a timbre of the Death voice, but it passes.“Lindsay honey, come here.” Jason opens his arms.Lindsay falls into them and Jason enfolds himself upon her.“We’re not just okay, we’re stronger than okay we’re… we’re us.”Lindsay smiles at this and they kiss, holding each other in love on Valentine’s Day.* * *Simone agrees to stay with Lindsay overnight and Paul drives Jason home.It’s dark now and the air is thick with imminent rain, despite a strong breeze gusting in off the ocean.“Jason, don’t stay up all night thinking about Derek, it won’t do any good.”“Don’t worry, I’m just going to concentrate on Lindsay and help her to get over this.”“After I drop you off I’m going back and stay with Simone for a while.”“Thank her for me again.You’re lucky to have her, you know?”“I know Jason, believe me I know.”Once home, Jason tells Paul goodbye and goes inside.His parents are sitting at the kitchen table.His father looks up.“What was all the trouble at Lindsay’s? Is everything all right?”Jason starts to talk and finds he cannot, the pain of the last few hours boils over and he begins to cry.Marjorie goes over and holds him.“Oh God what’s wrong?”Jason lowers his head onto her shoulder.“Lindsay was raped.”“What?” Marjorie exclaims.“Jason is she, is she all right?”“She will be mom.I’ll make sure.”“Son, are you all right?” Adam asks.“Dad, I don’t know yet, I really don’t know.”* * *After further explaining the situation to his parents, Jason goes to his room and spots the blinking light on his answering machine.Lindsay? Maybe she called while I was in the kitchen.He pushes the button expecting to hear the woman he loves, and instead, he hears Derek’s taunting voice.“Jason are you there? No? Fuck, I wanted to talk to you.Lindsay thinks you’re cheating Jason.I sent her pictures of you with another girl and she called me over here to help pay you back.I’m in her bed right now, and oh yeah, I’m also in Lindsay, and damn she feels good.”In the background of the tape, Lindsay can be heard faintly, moaning, telling Derek, “Stop pushing, let me sleep, oh God please stop, it hurts.”He’s hurting her.She’s begging him to stop and he’s hurting her [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]