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.Ché did not feel entirely like himself today.An odd contented-ness had come upon him, as though for the first time in his life he was precisely where he was supposed to be, and all was fine with the world.He had dreamed of his mother in the night.She had spoken about many things he couldn’t now remember, yet he recalled how she had smiled, and how the warmth shone off her like sunshine.His heart had swelled with it, and he had thought, How ugly the world is without these connections between us.And then he had awakened, to find Curl blinking at him next to his side.‘What about you? Do you miss it?’ Her tone said she was still annoyed with him.‘Home?’‘Yes.’He shook his head and realized it was true.He didn’t care if he never saw Q’os again.‘And where is home, Ché?’He hesitated, and then the lie that formed got tangled in his lips somehow, so that he said nothing.He was weary of secrets and the burdens they had become to him.This was a day for new beginnings.‘Ché?’He placed his platter on the ground, wiped his hands on his knees.‘What is it? Why can’t you tell me?’‘It’s just.’ He met her eye then.Curl seemed to see into him, for her expression hardened.‘No,’ she said, shaking her head.‘Not you.’Still he couldn’t find the words.Her face twisted in anguish.When Curl spoke, it was as though some invisible creature was trying to throttle her.‘You’re one of them? A Mannian?’Ché glanced about to see if anyone had overheard her.When he looked back, he felt the gulf that suddenly existed between them, the sudden loss of their connection, like a candle flame snuffed out.What have I done?Her platter fell to the ground.She walked off quickly towards the mess tent.‘Wait,’ he suddenly called after her.‘Let me explain!’She went inside.He watched with dread in his stomach as a group of Specials rushed from the tent, Curl walking behind them.‘On your feet,’ one of them ordered.Ché had eyes only for Curl.He knew he could still make her understand, if only she would look at him.‘On your feet, Mannian,’ growled another, catching the attention of others nearby.The man kicked Ché hard in the ribs, and he spilled over onto the grass.He caught a sight of Curl, her back turned to him, walking away with a hand covering her face.And then they laid into him with all their fury.CHAPTER FORTY-THREECourage of the DeadBull dreamed of his younger brother Kurtez, though in the dream Kurtez was a gangly boy again, shy and overly sensitive to the world, and Bull still the overbearing full-grown man.They were in the warren slums of their Bar-Khos childhoods, where Bull had first learned to fight and to enjoy it, being chased by a gang of unseen pursuers and their whoops and their war cries.In the dream, Bull told his younger brother to keep running, while he stopped and turned to face the baying mob, putting his scarred and massive body in their way to save him.When he awoke, startled, he found himself curled on the wet straw floor of the pit, shaking from the cold and drenched by the rain that fell from the night sky overhead.A soldier stood over the pit, a long jabber in his hand that wobbled as it he held it down through the wooden bars.He was poking Bull hard in the ribs to rouse him.‘No sleeping,’ said the man, and he sounded annoyed at having to remind him of this vital rule of life.Bull scraped himself up and leaned his back against the earthen wall, where rainwater was trickling down into the hole.The soldier moved around the edge of the pit, poking each of the prisoners in turn.Grunts and snorts of surprise sounded in the blackness.Bull thought of his dream, of the face of his brother.Kurtez had left a note when he’d taken his belt and hung himself from the rafters of his room.He couldn’t live with being cast aside by Adrianos, he had written.And seeing him strut around with his new lover.It was that note that Bull had stuffed into the mouth of Adri-anos as the man lay there dying.There had been no mention of it at his trial.Perhaps the family had removed it to cover their own sense of shame.Another jab against his shoulder made him look up.The guard had made a circuit of the pit, and had returned to him.‘No sleeping.’Bull was still shackled.His cramped and abused body was a study in every shade of bruise.Still, something snapped in him.He grabbed for the end of the jabber and yanked it from the surprised man’s grip.He clamped his other hand around it and shoved hard so that the end of it struck the man’s mouth.Bull rammed it again and again into his face.The man’s foot slipped on the crumbling edge of the pit, and he went down, sprawling face first across the bars that caged them in, the wood creaking against his weight.Bull wiped his face clear of rain and aimed the swaying jabber carefully.He cracked the man a final time on his temple, knocking him out.‘Chilanos!’ he hissed in the darkness and the rain as he struggled to his feet.‘Give me a hand up, man.’But Chilanos was silent, and Bull recalled the fellow had lost the ability to speak after his last interrogation with the priests.‘Bahn!’ he tried, though he wasn’t sure why, for Bahn was as far gone as the rest of them.‘Calvone!’A rustle of chains sounded next to him [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]