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.The thing I was most afraid of was that the medications that Cardinelli was seeking, were monitored drugs.Meaning once he started forging Andris’s signature, I knew it would set off a red flag in the system.“Well, then the only form of payment I will accept in return, is with you,” he said, wagging his bushy, caterpillar eyebrows at me.“You are out of your ever-loving fucking mind if you think I am going to sleep with you.You disgust me.You take advantage of people.Your wife hates you, so she seeks the pleasure of other men.How does that help you sleep at night?”He gripped my chin painfully in his grasp, his fingernails digging into my skin.“Listen, you fucking bitch.I don’t take shit from anyone, especially some fucking whore.You forget that I could end you and your boyfriend.You will get me more tablets.”He shoved me away and I stumbled backwards, nearly falling on my ass.I watched Cardinelli get into his car with his two fucking idiots that followed him around everywhere as he left me standing in the cold.I wasn’t in the best of neighborhoods and could feel the stares of all the people in the area.No doubt the majority of them were on his payroll, or worse, under his thumb when it came to the drugs they wanted.I climbed into a cab and got out of there as quickly as I could.I hated the fact that I had to steal from Andris again.But first, I had to get home and change.I always prided myself on having nerves of steel, but right now my stomach fluttered with what felt like a million butterflies alternating with cramping knots.It wasn’t every day that a woman met the second man in her life that she loved.ANDRIS’S HAND FELT clammy in mine as we rode together in silence.Most of the snow had melted which allowed him to drive the black car.The one Sinclaire used to pick me up in.It was strange riding in the front of the car that carried me to the anonymous meeting place every time I was with Link.I couldn’t help but wonder what was going through the minds of both of the men in my life as we approached this pivotal moment in our relationship.The way Andris spoke about Link and the way that Dr.Chambers told me to “go easy on Andris” had my shackles raised.Did Andris think I was going to hate him if Link wasn’t what I had imagined him to be? Or is he worried that I could possibly fall deeper in love with Link as soon as I laid eyes on him?My heart was beating loudly in my chest and I wondered if Andris could hear it.I tried to distract myself by taking in the surroundings as we passed through the late New York streets.I noticed that Andris was taking me to a part of town that was traditionally wealthy or celebrity.Was Link some celebrity singer or music star? Was he someone else entirely?It was strange that I had only spoken to him once, but had repeatedly allowed him to control and satisfy my body on a routinely basis.Yes, I was being paid for it, but the emotions that Link brought out in me would have let me do it for free.Andris squeezed my hand before bringing it to his lips and pressing a gentle kiss to the back.I couldn’t suppress the ache that came from deep inside me, knowing that this meeting with Link was somehow going to change the relationship between Andris and me irrevocably.There was fear in his eyes, and worry between his brows.The youthful, sexy man that I had come to love looked like he had aged in the last few hours.The breath caught in my chest when I realized something.Andris told me he loved me, and I never said it back.“Are you sure you want to do this, Andris?”He looked at me and then back to the road as he weaved through traffic, never letting go of my hand.“Yes,” he managed to say, his voice slightly croaking with unease.“I…”“What?” He asked as the back of his thumb slid back and forth on the back of my hand.It was almost as if he was giving me comfort and in return, comforting himself.“I love you.”Andris pulled into a parking garage and soon into a space that held a sign with A.S.Gunn on it.At first, I found it strange that he would have his own personal parking space at Link’s place, but then when I thought about the amount of time he spent there, it really wasn’t so strange after all.Cutting off the engine, Andris turned to look at me.Leaning in, he cupped the back of my head, threading his fingers through my hair as he brought our mouths together.My scalp prickled and my lips tingled as he slowly kissed me.It was different, slow, passionate, and filled with heaps of promise.“You have no idea how fucking happy it make me to hear you say that.God, Nicola.I’ve never felt about anyone the way I feel about you.My heart races every time I touch you.I’ve grown stronger because of you.And if it were any other person, the possibility of what is going to happen tonight would never happen.I want you to know, that no matter what happens after tonight, I want you to know that I love you.I love you more than anything or anybody I have ever had in my life.”“You act as if I’m going to run away from you,” I admitted with a smile, trying to liven up his mood.“There’s a damn good possibility that you will.”“I doubt it.Why don’t you let me prove you wrong?”He took a deep breath, as if preparing himself for what was to come before turning to me.“Just remember, okay?”“Okay.”Andris got out from the car and walked around to my side to help me.I took in the cleanliness of the garage as we walked towards the elevators.In New York, finding anything in a public space clean was a rarity.It felt strange to come to this place without the blindfold.Even though all the smells were familiar, it felt as if I were truly visiting the building for the first time.Andris’s nervousness was more apparent than ever as he leaned back against the mirrored walls of the elevator and closed his eyes.As the door closed, I looked up at the floor numbers.Forty-Eight.“What floor are we going to?”He opened his eyes and looked straight ahead, but never at me.I wanted to do something to help him ease into what was going to happen tonight.I wanted him to know that no matter what happened, my feelings for him wouldn’t change.I had already confessed my feelings to him in the car, and I didn’t have anything that I knew would help him relax.Except for one thing.“All the way to the top.”“Good.”I stood in front of him and pulled the tails of his crisply pressed dress shirt free from his pants before placing my hands on the buckle of his belt and proceeding to undo it.“Nicola—”“Shhh.” I said as I placed my fingers on his lips to keep him from protesting.I dropped my purse to the elevator floor, allowing it to land with a thud before I dropped to my knees in front of him.Knowing I didn’t have much time, I quickly unzipped his pants and pulled them down along with his boxers only enough to expose his enlarged cock to me.Cupping his balls, I placed my mouth over the head and sucked on it slowly, only once.From there I began a steady rhythm as I hollowed out my cheeks and opened my throat up to take him in deeper.“Fucking hell, Nicola,” he managed to say between panting breaths.I enjoyed the salty taste of him and the velvety smoothness of his skin.He grew even more in my mouth and my jaw ached from the intensity of my actions, but I didn’t care.This wasn’t for me, it was for him.This was to show him that I’d do anything for him, even take his mind off his demons, if only for a brief moment.His hands fisted in my hair as he held onto my head and I continued my swift strokes of my mouth.Saliva dropped out of the corner of my mouth and my eyes watered as I gagged a few times.I was turned on by the red lipstick that now coated his dick from my mouth.I continued to play with his balls, feeling them start to tighten as his orgasm quickly approached.“Oh fuck—” he repeated over and over, I glanced up briefly [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]